I had a bestfriend. Im not going to name names. But she was the best friend anyone could ever have.. I would do everything with her. Friends since kindergarten.. she was the one who knew most about me of all my friends.. I would talk to her about everything pretty much and she new my family the best and was part of it. She was the one i laughed with, cried with, and could just be my crazy self with. Until about last May. I don’t even know what happened.. it seems like better people came into her life and she pretty much left me there.. without her.. she dumped me for people she so called “hated.” Whatever that word was in her dictionary. She used to be so nice and then she turned and was just cliques. Thats all that mattered to her, was how many friends she had even if she talked about every single one of them and how much she didn’t like them behind their backs. I don’t know if she was lying to me, or lying to them by being friends with them. But I miss her so much, and sometimes I get mad at myself when I miss her.. she talks to me every now and then. But just simple words, nothing in detail. I always think it’s my fault, and I blame myself everyday… but then I realize I did everything I could do to keep the friendship, that never did last. I would do almost anything to be friends like we were before, I have tried, but it never really worked out. I guess I just miss her… so much.
